Its just about 7pm here and my dog Roxy has just gone in the car heading to her final destination. My sister did a journal for Roxy, but I can't seem to bring myself to write much. I love her so much. I dont want her to go, but it is horrible to hold on to her any longer. My parents wanted to wait until I had finished my exams to put her to sleep. It is a horrible way to start the holidays. My heart feels like someone is squeezing it until I can't even breathe. My eyes sting and I couldn't even go with her to the vet. I dont like peoepl seeing me cry. It makes me feel pathetic. But I am pathetic so who cares. I dont want her to die. I love her so much. I can remeber as clear as the day the first time I saw her. She was a tiny puppy that could hardly walk without falling over. That same day she came to my nan's house and fell asleep on my lap. She had a little dream and whined in her sleep. It was so cute. Back then she was so small that you could carry her almost in one had. Now she is a heavy dog that i am going to miss so badly. I want to say thank you to my best friends who helped try to comfort me. Thanks so much. I guess I will see ya at school on Thursday. I will try to smile.

Rachel